Ever since I started doing more with stock photography, I’ve done less with portraiture photography, specifically self-portraiture. Another reason why my portfolio is lacking in recent self-portraits is because for a few years now I struggle more with being myself and opening up. So this is an exercise for me: every week I think of a theme to work with and I try my damn hardest to produce at least one decent self-portrait. Even if I’m not entirely satisfied for the week, what matters is that I try. So these are my attempts at re-awakening something within. The challenge is double in a sense. While I do want to work with themes that are fitting with who I am and what I like, I also try to get out of my former comfort zone by trying different styles, lighting and subjects.
Theme 01 is Noir. I love anything vintage inspired, so it is definitely a theme that’s “me”, but I challenged myself somewhat by using bright, contrasting indoor lighting for the photos and by stepping away from how I’d usually edit a portrait.
Theme 02 deals with grief and overcoming the deep feelings of loss while always carrying it with you as you move forward with your life.
Theme 03 I wanted to use the vampire as a representation of what it feels like to have a chronic condition. The vampire as a domineering, powerful, taunting life drainer. (I have to find a way to do these descriptions a little better.) It was fun to do a studio portrait like this.
January 12, 2016